So other than the fact nothing has been going on….nothing has been going on, really.
I haven’t manipulated dynamically in the last few days (lol), due to the state of my arms.
Or piano’d.
I’ve been preoccupied with trying to stay optimistic, I guess. It’s been holding up pretty well, except I did look in the mirror and do the “Oh God, Rose…” thing like I thought I would. It was more over how bad my face looks, though. I woke up and my lips were actually so purple, they LACKED color. Combined with my dark circles and wiry morning afro hair, I could’ve easily gotten the part in a Tim Burton claymation, had I been auditioning. And made of clay.
Optimism! You need it when:
-You have a past you are ashamed of
-You don’t like where you are now
-The total financial savings of the members in your family ≤ $300
-There’s a good chance you’ll have to give up the lifestyle that has kept you from killing yourself
-Your future isn’t looking so good
…At least I have all my limbs.
I found some demotivators while digging through my picture folder that will remain nameless due to its nature.
And you know, someone probably IS having a worse day than I am.
(And there ARE plenty of other fish in the sea. But I’m nowhere near the sea. I’m in the desert. Alone.)
(And maybe, secretly, I like it that way…)
