God.

It Remains Unofficial

I admit, that night, I turned to you
even though we’ve long been done, it was because of all we’ve been through
There was that time back then you said “I should’ve been the one”
and you know that every day I’m here is one more day I can’t move on

Don’t tell them this until I’ve left, but I’m not coming back just yet
Even though I want to try, it’s not my place to save your life
I’ll pack my things anyway, I’ll pack my feelings away anyway
It breaks my heart, it breaks my heart, it shouldn’t have to be so hard

If you could do it all over again, I would pick you up all over again
I like it when I am that someone, even if only because of intoxication
But in my heart I hope that these aren’t the only times you’ll be at such ease

The truth is, you were right, and I hate it when you’re right
Both of us just shut our eyes once our future looked too bright
It was slightly out of tune and I began to lose my focus
Within my head I searched so hard for something that could save us
That moment of pain, the right words to say, I didn’t know
I only hoped deep down you liked that I refused to let you go

Maybe what you have now isn’t what you’ve always wanted
I’ll tell you this for free though: even I’m still undecided
I know I know these waters well but it’s your ship, not mine
Of course you know you used to say that we had lots of time

Was it that you didn’t know? Or you just didn’t care?
Or was it that you knew I’d always be there
I’ve always been right there and you know, I don’t mind
because I’d rather be right here than where you are